|A mind is a terrible thing.....
||[May. 22nd, 2006|11:43 am]
I have been nervous of late and just now realized the source of it.
I have hidden the ring in a good place so that Luthien cannot find it but I want to give it to her. I want the moment to be special, for this is one of the most important things I have ever done. I will bond with my chosen partner and I want everything to be perfect. That is just the thing.....so much whirls in my mind that I lie awake worrying about it.
I had worked my self up into a good lather the other day and had to go see my uncle in his office. He, of anyone, would understand. I mean who has more mates than he? Except maybe Celeborn, perhaps? He would understand the ways of the heart. Well it was good I did, he made me feel better for certain. If left to my own devices my thoughts will escalate to grand proportions.
First thing he did was laugh at my state. A good laugh. I was a bit peeved at first, I must tell you. Being laughed at by Nolofinwë is quite annoying. I gave him my best Lady of Light glare but he did not stop. He got tears in his eyes, I kid you not. He could tell I was getting steamed so he finally stopped, wiping his eyes. Then he said the most simple, profound thing that I took to my heart.
"If you love her, it will all work out perfectly. There is no wrong or right of it."
I sat up straight at that and mulled his words over in my mind.
"Stop thinking, Artanis and just love her."
I sighed and smiled at him the weight of all my worry slipping off my shoulders. I love my uncle, I really do. I gave him a big hug and then we planned a wonderful evening for Luthien complete with food, flowers, candles and the works. My darling love will not know what hit her. Nolo is turning into quite the chef, and gave me recipes and everything.
I was in a much better mood when I left and my plan was set. I always like to have a plan. I think that runs in the family.